Change can bring you to your knees.
8 I called to you, Lord;
I begged for your help:
There is nothing wrong with begging, when you have been brought to your knees following God. All moments in following God are not fun. You may experience deep contrition and even despondency. Elijah despaired and wanted to die. Jonah become morose. Jeremiah cried out in anguish. Moses struggled. Jesus sweated drops of blood. God will take you to your breaking point.
Some teach that peace is the indicator of God’s will. Really? Have you read a Bible. Men and women went through great anguish when following the voice of God. He means to change us and change can rattle our souls.
It makes me laugh, when I think of the times God has completely thrown me into an unwinnable situation with my strength but a miraculous solution on my knees.
A major shift in which I am going today leaves me nowhere to go but my knees. Every attempt I have made to advance the cause of Christ and move the vision forward failed miserably. I don’t mean a little bit, I mean with embarrassment, misery, pain, consternation, frustration, lost dollars, pitiful results, humiliation, and humbling. The humbling is God. The rest is my human flesh mess.
It is hilarious. He has brought me through all my attempts and all my understanding to a point of total dependence on Him. I cannot do anything right. He will not let me fail.
He has intervened miraculously on every front of my life, where my efforts have failed.
This is not new. This is deep training. He and I have walked through other situations like this, where He intervenes and teaches me to trust and obey when all seems lost and flawed.
Go ahead and beg. Get on your knees and cry out to God. Give up all you know and let Him intervene.